My first love was the most horrible thing that had ever happened to me.
MIND YOU THIS IS JUST SOME OF IT. i still need to add to it....but I just thought I'd give you all a little sneak peak or whatever. Enjoy....?
`So I've decided to start writing blogs again. Writing/ blogging allows me to collect all my thoughts and stuff. I decided to start this again because I'm going through a quote un quote difficult time. I'm pretty much happy except for this one thing...which I will explain in this particular blog. I doubt any of you will ready the entire thing...but please please please take the time to read it. I need advice for once.
Okay so here it goes.
My first love was the most horrible thing that had ever happened to me. He was my best friend. He was pretty much the most amazing guy ever. It all started on August 1, 2009. He asked me out through the phone at 4 in the morning...or maybe it was 5 in the morning. I'm not sure. All I know is that I was sometime in the early morning. I said yes despite the fact that I was extremely doubtful that our relationship was gonna last. I was doubtful for the sole reason that I know what kind of girl I am. I know that I'm not one for a monogamous relationship and all that jazz. But either way, I still said yes. We were both happy for some time...and then everything started to go downhill.
I cheated on him exactly 7 days after we started going out. Way to go Priscila! I apologized. He forgave me. Simple as pie. Everything went back to normal...for about a 2 weeks. And then started the fights. Nothing physical, just verbal. The fights were over stupid things. Stupid, pointless shit. I was always the one to start them. Ughhhh anyways, this blog is not about that.
He's the first guy I ever said "I love you" to and actually meant it. And that a huge thing for me to do cause I take the whole "I love you" thing really seriously. I hate those girls who are like "OMGZ I LOVE YOU BBY" after only one week of dating a guy. Its disgusting. YOU'RE 12 AND DATING THAT GUY FOR A WEEK. YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT LOVE IS SO STFU. Anywho, I love him. I absolutely fucking adore him. He hates my guts though. The worst part is that I don't even know what I did wrong. I mean, I know I did something to fuck everything up...cause its ALWAYS my fault...but I just don't know what. No sarcasm there by the way.
He won't talk to me in school. When I text him, he texts back one word answers. I have French with him and every time I walk in, he's always has his head on the desk...sulking and stuff. It kills me. It absolutely kills me.
bone dry.
srry.
i'll be prepared next time. i swear.
keep your head up though!
n_n
GIRL, u said u love him! and that u MEAN it!
so why u said it was the most horrible thing that happened to you?
Do you have mutual friends?
Maybe try and get them to sus him out, see what, in his opinion you've done wrong.
then maybe organise group hangouts where your both there, and slowly try to rekindle your relationship?
I dunno bby, but you can't just do nothing.
As much as you would like it to just all go away, you have to do something about it.
TRUST ME. It aint easy, but it'll be better when you do.
(L)
The thing is...I'm kinda over him. Is that weird?
its complicated! its extremely complicated -.-
you're right. i kinda wanna do something spontaneous...but...meh....idk
i wish i'd know what to say..but i don't.
i hope things'll get better and just..stay positive :)